Crescendo

Only as far as we reach can we grow.

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:37:35 GMT

Let me just get this out: Sometimes I need to shut my mouth and maybe if I did so more often I wouldn't hurt feelings and break hearts so damn much. But why would you say things like that? Why do you sit there and say things to me that you know will hurt me? Why is it that my *best friend* is the one doing this?

So since I haven't updated this blog in fifteen weeks according to LJ, it's about time for an update. The people on my f-list probably think I'm dead ._.

But no, I was elected student council president. I organized a food drive in which we raised over 1,292 lbs. I am in the principal's office every morning helping her out with announcements and advising her on things. I have second chair in MSO and and principal second in Settlement MLCIO. I'll be playing Monti's Csardas as a solo by the springtime. I'm the first violinist of a very interesting quartet. I am so, so very happy.

And also a little bit lonely, because I do not really have friendships at school. I am greatly respected and treated with reverence, and maybe that's why. Even teachers treat me more like one of them than as a student. My favorite teacher tells me that I can go anywhere in life, with my combined intelligence and talent. I radiate success - it's probably very off-putting to students who don't talk about the future, who prefer to talk shit about each other and who's having sex with who.

But I'm not lonely at all outside of school. My friends from rehearsals and classes are all talented, and the majority of them are far more competent than the people I put up with at school. Considering we don't talk about grades and stuff so much as we talk about how awesome/terrible the new piece is and how amazing the concertmaster sounds/how horrible the last chair sounds, nobody knows about my stunningly high grades and psychotic IQ and they don't treat me like someone to be admired, but as a friend.

I guess my life is good right now. Not exceptionally incredibly terrific, but very good. After all, my only problem is little bouts of loneliness; I have it really easy~! ^^ Now I'm just waiting for audition letters to start coming in the mail (I applied to two performing arts schools) and trying to arrange something like a Secret Santa for my class =) Life is good.

The Same Mistakes Again

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 22:36:36 GMT

Four years. You've lied to me, our entire family, to everybody you know, even to her for four years.

And you would've kept lying if you hadn't been caught.

My mother suspected it the whole time, but I told her you weren't. I trusted you and told her that you were faithful, that you were too smart to do such a thing. Then three days ago, the Blackberry in your pocket accidentally calls me (I was your last call) and I listen in on you with the other woman for almost an hour.

You told her that you were sick of your children, that they made your head hurt, and that your wife - my mother - was a crying, whiny, annoying, clingy bitch that you wanted to get rid of. You told her that she was beautiful, that you loved her.

Fuck you.

And then you pulled the Blackberry out of your pocket to check the time and realized what'd happened. I exploded at you, naturally, and you told me you were coming home right away to explain before hanging up.

Then when you came home you said to me that you never loved her, that you were using her for sex those four years. That you really loved us. Really? Even if I believed your bullshit, that makes it worse. Not only are you fucking with our minds, you're fucking with hers too. Oh, that makes me feel so much better. You've been manipulating everybody around you, hurting and lying to everybody around you for your own amusement. And then you try and justify your actions, saying that everybody's doing it, that lots of people out there cheat on their spouses.

Do I give a flying fuck about those other people? What they're doing is wrong too. Forgive me for using the cliché - if everybody jumped off a bridge, would you do it too? You're disgusting.

And now a meme that has nothing to do with the aforementioned.

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done.
Then re-post as you're __% innocent

01. Smoked
02. Drank alcohol.
03. Cried when someone died.
04. Been drunk.
05. Had sex.
06. Been to a concert.
07. Gotten/given a hand job.
08. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
09. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose .
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 90%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 88%

31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Made beans.
40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 83%

41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 76%

51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Made spicy beans.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed Goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 72%

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 68%

71. Been caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.
81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 61%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Left a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been slapped/punched

FINAL PERCENTAGE: 56%

I don't really understand why half of the things on that list make you not innocent? -Shrugs.- This entire world doesn't make any sense anymore.

Memes~!!

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 22:03:20 GMT

Survey thingies I nabbed from two friends =)

Have you ever let someone be your everything?
No - I find that idea moronic. That, to me, is the most awful thing you could do to yourself.

Last person to yell at you?
My father =/

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
Nothing really. It's pretty awesome actually.

What would you do if you saw the last person you kissed?
Squeal and hug him because he lives 22 hours away from here XD

Who was the last person you stayed up on the phone 'til 2 AM?
The boyfriend =)

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes...I experience heartbreak over little things, though, like not getting something that I've wanted for a long time =x

Do you have any weird inside jokes?
FLYING VAGINAS!! XDDD ♥

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Andy x)

Where is the next place you will travel to?
Probably like...Toronto.

What was the last thing you bought?
Whoa. I totally don't remember.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex that you talked to?
My brother? XD

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
Last night. Definitely last night.

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
Sounds yummy =D Nope~

Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
My heart goes where it goes -Shrugs.- Although I do have to discipline it sometimes.

It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it?
A wrong number...or someone who needs me to bail them out of jail XD

Whats the last movie you watched?
Jackass =D

Have anything to say to someone?
Kind of but not really. Like I want to say it but I don't and it's not important anyway so I...won't.

When's the last time you cried?
Last night because the parents were being really annoying and I got so pissed I cried XD I don't cry often, actually.

Have you ever cried so much you threw up?
I don't cry that hard oO

The first letter of your middle name?
Confidential information -Nods.-

B&W photos or colored?
Color! But sometimes it just looks better in black and white~

Look out your window, what do you see?
A huge tree?

Have you ever walked into a wall?
Haha a lot x3

Have you ever walked in the wrong bathroom?
Accidentally-on-purpose =D

Do you prefer milk & cookies or just cookies?
Milk only if it's lactose-free and fat-free.

Are you hungry now?
Not really.

Do you have any piercings?
Just the ears.

Do you like to read?
I used to really like it but I kinda stopped =/

Last person who made you laugh?
Satsuki

What is your current ring tone?
Omakase Guardian! by Guardians 4

Can you speak 2 languages?
Five. xD Genius is genius~!

Something you really want right now?
ACC Passport D= But I probably won't get it...

If you could seek revenge on someone would you?
Depends what they did? Most of the time no...

Are you happy with the way things are going?
MLIG =D

Do you and your last ex hate each other?
No, we're friends =)

When was the last time you were sick?
Like two nights ago. I'm so frail D=

Do you tend to waste a lot of money?
Spending problem XD

Do you have trust issues?
Who in this family doesn't.

Do you think this year will be better than the last?
It is =D I can already tell.

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?
I might but I'm not sure. Like they haven't told me...

At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
When I was six I used to follow this one guy around. It was kinda cute but kinda stalkerish XD

Do you know someone who likes you?
Mhmmm =D

How was your day?
Excellent~!

How's your heart lately?
Angsty but super happy too xD

Have you changed your clothes in a vehicle?
YES. Oh my gosh, I thought I was the only weirdo that would do this!!

Where is the last place you went to go eat?
That Asian restaurant. Yeaaah.

Are you allergic to anything?
Pollen, like normal people...and also avocados =O

Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
Nope 0=)

Has anyone ever said something that brought tears to your eyes?
I'm easily touched =)

Who did you last drive in a car with, besides family?
Kelsye =D

Ever licked someone's cheek or forehead?
No...oO;;

Have you ever flown in an airplane?
Often.

Are you waiting for something?
Not particularly.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
I woke up horny. Which is pretty fucking weird.

Does any part of your body hurt right now?
Nah.

Are you wearing make-up right now?
Don't wear makeup, I'm already fantastically beautiful without it =O

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
That I'm selfish and spoiled and pretty useless =/

Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Hair =D

Have you ever told anyone you were okay when you really weren't?
Lots of times -Nods.-

Are you on any medication?
Kinda...?

Do you think two people can last forever?
Nope. I estimate that I would get sick of them within 60 years...forever is a lot longer than that.

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past month?
Haha YES.

Was yesterday better than today?
No, today was better than yesterday.

How late did you stay up last night?
3:30 AM.

Do you think you have made anyone happy recently?
Sure.

Where did you buy the shirt you’re wearing now?
Delia*s <33

What is something you need to go shopping for?
Shoes. Also the new school year. But mostly shoes. I want stiletto.

Honestly, what color is your underwear?
Lavender XDDD Why this question?!

Have you done something bad today?
I'm not wearing any pants =D That probably doesn't count~

When was the last time you hugged someone?
A couple hours ago~

Are you normally a happy person?
Yes =D

Do you own any kind of yellow clothing?
I do =)

What is your current mood?
Content and smiley =)

Does anyone think you're mean?
Maybe =X.

Seven Deadly Sins Meme ♥

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 19:44:22 GMT

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Low
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very High
Pride:	High

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

LDR

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 00:47:57 GMT

It's difficult to describe him. On the first day of camp, he came across to me as an attractive jerk. The kind that laughs at people and can be a bully...but also the kind of guy that girls would fight over. He's extremely cute. During our individual practice time, he came into my studio (40) and clapped chalk erasers, purposely dusting it up. "How's it going?" he asked cheerfully, clouds of yellow floating into the air. I couldn't even comprehend what he... Why would you even do something like that?! He left, coughing slightly, and I remember calling after him, "That's what you get!" But strangely, at 12:00, he came into my studio again to tell me it was lunchtime, because he'd noticed that there were no clocks on the wall. That was a random act of kindness, almost?

Then after lunch I had a music theory class with him and I concluded that although he was extremely amusing, he had a very low IQ.

So I didn't think very highly of him.

A few days later we were having sectionals, and because I was the concertmistress, it had to be in studio 40. I think either Ayami or Lily asked if it was break yet, and Averi pulled out her phone to check the time. I told her that there was no need, because he would've come to get us.

"James? You think James is going to tell us?" Kelsye interrupted. To be honest, not too many people were fond of him in the first few days.

"Well he always does it for me," I told them, and it was like a moment out of a TV show where everyone says the same thing at exactly the same time.

"James likes you," said the entire first violin section. I blushed. Hard. And was suddenly ashamed for not seeing it. How did everyone except for me know?

Later, we were coming back up from break when Lily dared me to take the elevator back up to the second floor. Why? Because he was notorious for kicking everyone out of the elevator. I've never turned down a dare, so I did it - and he didn't object. And while I was walking back towards Studio 40, I heard Ayami ask, "Where's Julie?" and I appeared suddenly.

"I told you," at least three people said at once, and I couldn't stop myself from grinning.

By next week, he was walking me home everyday. By next week, when I used his phone to call mine (therefore exchanging numbers), he was calling and texting me every day. He was surprisingly open and explained that he had used the chalk thing as a means of 'breaking the ice'. I found out that we could talk to each other for over four hours and never run out of things to say (we could've gone further but were both tired - the call ended at about 2 am). I found out that he is one of the most incredible people I've ever met, with some profound opinions and is absurdly intelligent (he plays dumb to make people laugh...he loves it when people laugh).

And then I found out that he lives in Tampa, Florida. Which is 22 hours' driving distance away from where I live.

But I will bear the pain of a long distance relationship, because he is incredible. Because he lives in Tampa, surrounded by girls ten times prettier than I am, and he still chose me. Because he can look me in the eye and tell me that there is something special about me that draws him in. Because he likes me for me, not for what I look like (unlike several of my exes).

Because I feel that pull and I am drawn to him too.

As easily lost as a dream...

Thu, 21 May 2009 23:37:40 GMT

I feel like nothing really important has happened lately? Even though I have intense rehearsals (final concerts coming up) and my social status is higher than ever and I should be either exhausted or dead...

It's like it's not enough.

I find myself wishing I was somewhere else a lot, and I entertain unrealistic fantasies and I haven't been taking school seriously at all. I really don't know what's wrong with me.

One of my old friends, his name is Austin, he texted me last Friday and we've been calling each other a lot lately. He's so much fun to talk to and I think that that's it - his life is so interesting, so much more fun than mine that I wonder what the hell I'm doing, exactly? Most of the people in my class hates mostly everybody else in my class and I'm no exception. I can't stand most of these people, I pretend to make nice with some people, and I know they aren't real friends - the kind that would back me up no matter what, the kind that doesn't talk about you behind your back ("Veronica, I think I just heard them say my name." "Julie, who doesn't talk about you?"), but it's really all I can do. Half of the teachers are amazing and the other half is trash. There's no happy medium.

I can't stand school. The rest of my life is happy (orchestras are super fun, conductors and private teachers and coaches just absurdly wonderful), although I'm gradually getting farther and farther from my parents. It's like every time they open their mouths, they end up somehow pissing me off.

And finally I love end of season clearances. Look at the price difference on these freaking shoes!

I do stupid things 71% of the time

Wed, 06 May 2009 19:59:36 GMT

Meme from ouran~ <3

Directions:
Mark which things you have done, then calculate your score by counting the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 100 questions which means that the number you get as your score is also your percentage. Tag 10 of your friends , and re-post as "I do stupid things __% of the time."

1. [x] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out
2. [ ] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails
3. [x] Broken a chair by leaning back in it
4. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking
5. [ ] Choked on your own spit while you were talking
6. [ ] Had people tell you that you are blond when you're not, or had people tell you that your blond highlights are going to your head
7. [x] Been caught staring at your crush by your crush
8. [x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand
9. [x] Tried to push open a door that said pull
10. [x] Tried to pull open a door that said push

Running total: 7

11. [x] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x] Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [x] Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs
14. [ ] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. [x] Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [x] Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it
18. [ ] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [x] Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [x] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot

Running total: 15

21. [ ] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on
22. [x] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [x] Have run into a closed door
25. [x] Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it
26. [x] It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke
27. [ ] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer
28. [x] Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [x] Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [ ] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock

Running total: 21

31. [x] After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped in it
32. [x] Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside
33. [x] Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [ ] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property
35. [x] Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [x] Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on.
37. [x] Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in
38. [x] Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. [x] Walked into a pole
40. [x] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident

Running total: 30

41. [x] took a picture of someone's eye with the flash on
43. [x] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small
44. [x] Walked out of the bathroom with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it was that you were going to do
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it
47. [x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [x] Have poked yourself in the eye
49. [x] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on
50. [ ] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair

Running total: 38

51. [ ] Have done enough stupid things to make a test
52. [x] Have accidentally stabbed yourself with a pencil
53. [x] Have sung the wrong verse to a song without realizing it
54. [ ] Have given an odd answer to a question because you didn't hear the question in the first place and didn't feel like asking what it was
55. [x] Told someone you were the wrong age because you seriously forgot how old you were
56. [x] Looked into an overhead purposefully while it was on
57. [x] Got up early and got ready for school/work, then realized that you didn't have school/work that day
58. [x] Forgot your own phone number
59. [x] Have tripped on a cord after someone told you to watch out for it
60. [x] Have ever laughed at a joke that no one else thought was funny

Running total: 46

61. [ ] Done the Macarena to the electric slide or vice versa
62. [ ] Said funner then had someone make fun of you for it
63. [ ] Have repeated yourself at least twice in the same sentence
64. [x] Brought up an inside joke with the wrong person
65. [ ] Didn't do the backside of an assignment because you thought that there wasn't one because you had already looked and forgot that there was another side
66. [x] Did more work than you had to on an assignment because you didn't read the directions
67. [x] Corrected someone's grammar/pronunciation then figured out that you were the one that was wrong
68. [x] Put something in a special place so that you would remember where it was, then forgot where you put it
69. [x] Put ice in your drink after the glass was full of liquid and had it splash out
70. [ ] Told a lie then forgot what it was that you had said and got caught

Running total: 51

71. [x] When wearing goggles, you pulled them away from your face and let go so that they would come back and snap you in the face
72. [ ] Forgot to make sure that the lamp was off before you replaced the light bulb
73. [ ] Ran into a door jam
74. [x] Told someone that you hardly ever do stupid things, then immediately did/said something stupid
75. [x] Told someone to watch out for something, then you were the one that ran into it
76. [ ] Have purposely licked playground sand
77. [x] Have purposely and repeatedly flicked yourself with a rubber band
78. [x] Gotten so hyper that someone actually thought you were drunk when you weren't
79. [x] Have been so hyper you actually scared people
80. [x] Put duct tape on your body then pulled it off to see if it would hurt

Running total: 58

81. [ ] Put tape on someone else's hair then pulled it off
82. [x] Put a clothes pin/hair clip on your lip, figured out that it hurt, then did it again
83. [x] Sat and wondered why men's dress shirts have a loop on the back
84. [x] Made up a code name for someone so that you could talk about them to someone else and no one else would know who you were talking about
85. [x] Have gotten a hairbrush stuck in your hair
86. [ ] Used the straw to blow the straw wrapper at someone
87. [ ] Shaved your tongue because you thought your taste buds looked funny
88. [ ] When at a restaurant, you used your spoon to fling stuff at people
89. [ ] Have flung forks at people in a restaurant
89. [x] Tripped and made the waiter drop the food

Running total: 63

91. [x] As you are writing you move/moved your head back and forth with your pen/pencil
92. [x] Have drawn finger puppets on your fingers then named them
93. [ ] Have wrapped someone in a roll of toilet paper
94. [x] Have used somebody else's toothbrush without even realizing it wasn't yours
95. [x] Have started telling a story and forget what you were talking about or what happened in the story.
96. [x] Read a whole book but during the whole book you weren't even paying attention
97. [x] You have spelled your own name wrong before
98. [x] When lying in bed you look for pictures in the texture of the ceiling
99. [x] Have used your calculator as a form of communication in a class
100. [ ] Have popped a balloon in your mouth

Almost done with school, I can't wait for summer~

Wed, 06 May 2009 00:50:46 GMT

People talk too much shit about other people...

But my life is a lot better than it was last month. I made a couple of realizations that I should've made a long time ago, and I think the transfer student being made of awesome helped too =3

The only things that squick me right now is that I'm not sure whether or not I'll win the science fair this year like I won it last year, I have a report due Friday that I haven't started yet, and it's been raining every single day for over a week now and I don't own an umbrella.

Also teenage boys are confusing...

Spring Break

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 19:06:11 GMT

On Monday I went to the movies with my boyfriend (The Haunting in CT) and ended up grounded because it was cold and raining and the bus never came and then he yelled at the taxi guy for taking so long so I ended up calling my mom to pick me up. T_T

So the rest of my spring break has been nothing but video games and ice cream. Somebody kill me. Now.

Meme from ouranwind

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 20:00:54 GMT

1. How did you come up with your username jewelieishness?

My English name is Julie - Jewelie
I don't always act like myself - ish
Needs something else - ness

2. What is/are you absolutely favorite fandom(s)?
Rozen Maiden~! Anything involving mass murder is alluring to me, not to mention Suigintou is the most beautiful albino I've ever seen in my LIFE. Not to mention all of the OSTs. Bara no Jubai is so haunting~!

3. What is your favorite season?
Summer! Although sometimes I catch myself wishing I were at school~

4. Coke or Pepsi?
Neither. I can't drink cola, it makes me sick D:

5. Who's your favorite guy from La Corda d'Oro? =D
Len because he's hot. XD Keiichi runs a close second, he's so sweet and adorable and narcoleptic ♥♥♥ Not to mention I have a thing for small boys playing large instruments ;)

Instant Drabble

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 22:17:41 GMT

Created using this - http://prillalar.com/drabbles/

~*~

Misa sipped quietly at her drink and stood sparkling behind a truffle. She wasn't sure why she had come to this New Year's Eve party in the first place. She was no good at parties anyhow. They always made her feel chocolatey and she ended up like she was now, hiding and hoping nobody noticed how circular her neck got when she was nervous.

Well, truth be told, Misa knew very well why she was at the party: to see Ryoutarou.

Ah, Ryoutarou. Just the thought of him, the chance of a glimpse of his silver eye made Misa's heart beat like a horny guy that does nothing but watch porn all day.

But tonight everyone was masked. Misa peered awkwardly through the crowd, trying to guess which guest was Ryoutarou. There, she thought, the man over by the balloon, the resonant one with the flamingo mask. It had to be Ryoutarou. No one else could look so deformed, even in a flamingo mask.

He began to walk Misa's way and Misa started to panic. What if he actually talked to Misa?

Ryoutarou came right up to Misa and Misa thought that she was going to faint.

"Hello," Ryoutarou said hungrily. "What are you doing over here all alone?"

"Oh, just looking at the jackrabbit," Misa said and immediately wanted to die because that sounded so purple.

Just then, a pink voice began to count down. "Ten ... nine ... eight ... seven ..."

Misa's heart leapt. If they were together at midnight, that meant that Ryoutarou might ...

"Happy New Year!"

Ryoutarou swept Misa into his arms, bent her on Youtube, and kissed Misa softly, slipping her the tongue and groping her toenail.

Misa could hardly believe it. How wonderful! And now that it was after midnight, it was time to take their masks off. She reached out lovingly and pulled Ryoutarou's mask off his face. It was Ryoutarou! "I knew it was you," Misa said and took her own mask off.

"And it's ... you," Ryoutarou said. "You know, I'm just going to go get some punch."

Misa watched him go. He would be right back, Misa was sure. Just as soon as he had his punch.

And then they would fall in love.

Fail at life

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 22:35:27 GMT

Andy's out to get me. I swear it.

Today I confused similar with congruent. How the hell do you do that?

Today in phys ed I was turning out the lights in the supply closet and I'd just started to close the door when Kareem's crazy rapist self walked in and cornered me. I'M STILL A VIRGIN THO, KTHNX.

Today I gave in to the power of the brownie. Takeen's mom makes terrific brownies<3

Today at lesson my intonation failed.

Today at lesson Mandy asked me where I got my bag and I blanked out.

Today at music theory I was a total showoff and Mr. Riley was so impressed :3

Today at music theory it occurred to me that Louis is hot. He's like what, five years older though?

Today at music theory it occurred to me that Alex has a huge ass *___* He's like what, eight years younger though?

Today Daniel aced his Certification and I just remembered that mine is in four days. Oh crap.

Today I totally checked out Howard even though I told myself NOT to. Cannot resist the beautiful innocent little kids :K

Today I learned a valuable lesson but it's very hard to apply to RL -__-

...And I want to gnaw on Josh. He's so cute.

~*~

I found out who likes me. It's Sean, and he asked me out last night. I don't like like him but I don't want to hurt his feelings either and oh my God what do I do T___T

Sometimes people just don't get it

Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:49:17 GMT

I woke up this morning and found a whole box of donuts downstairs. Naturally I reach for the jelly ('cause there's no boston cream) and Andy. Starts. Crying. He smacks me and he's like "Noooo!" And me, being the wonderful older sister that I am, tell him to eat it then if he wants it so much.

Sob whimper. "I don't want it!"

WTF. You don't want it but you won't let me have it? You ho. You're lucky you're cute, otherwise I would've beat you down :K

Also:
Imani told me the other day that someone has a crush on me and I'm wondering who it is. I'm not going to sit there and lie and say I don't have someone that I hope it is, because I do, and this is driving me crazy x__x

Damon's been trying to lap dance me this entire week. ~~He's so soft and girly.~~

Ronald told me he was transferring to another school and I was like "OH GOD YES" then he called me a slut and told me he only said it to see how I'd react. -___-...Sixty school days to go before I never have to see him again.

My glasses completely fell apart (kinda like Barasuishou in Rozen Maiden) but I got them repaired today. I can see~! =DDD

I asked my science teacher why babies that are the result of incest come out with deformities and he gave me some explanation involving heredity and genes and I wasn't really listening :/ Then Tricia was like "You wanna know why Julie asked you that question?" And he was like "....You...EW! JULIE!!" He's so LATE. Like everyone knows I think Nick is hot (he's my cousin on my dad's side of the family and I don't like like him but he's really hot and I've made that opinion public xDD)

I got on Facebook today for the first time in like ever and it's pretty cool. Might be over there for a while. Don't worry, LJ, I still wuv you <3

Everything's good right now

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 23:55:32 GMT

My new private teacher told me to call her 'Mandy', although Gianna's mother referred to her as Amanda. She's awfully outgoing and kind.

And she's far more than competent. She fixed my bow hold - something no other teacher has ever been able to do XD And she's really cool about me playing in too many orchestras.

But then I totally screwed up in my music theory class because I turned my phone on right before it and my mother called me while Mr. Riley was still speaking.

...Shit. Why did I even turn my phone on? That was dumb D=

My ringtone is Shugo Chara's Minna no Tamago, too. If you look it up on Youtube you'll see that's probably the worst thing that can break through a class. So so so stupid. (Oh, I got a new cell phone because I dropped my old one in the toilet xD I used to have the Samsung SGH-E250 in black, and now I have the Samsung SGH-J700 in blue)

I talked to the band teacher at my school about All-City and she said she'll totally take care of me, so I'm happy =D Everything's good right now. I have a report on the Cambodian holocaust to do and those three auditions are still stressing me out, but I think everything's good right now. I took the practice exams this week and I'm pretty confident I'll do well on March 16th, so the exams aren't worrying me too much =D

Thank goodness I don't have to take the science exams this year. If I did, I'd fail - who cares about biomes and what a chapparal is? X_X

"Anybody wanna take a whirl at the solo?"

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 23:47:49 GMT

El oh el @ morning rehearsal.

Me, Atamosi, Isabela, and Lily raised our hands. The solo for Ravel's Bolero spans sixteen measures, so Ms. Johnson assigned us each four measures. Then she looked directly at me and Mosi and said, "And if there's a tied note in between, tough."

I got the first four measures and did pretty well, although my intonation was a little off until I got to the second measure (apparently nobody other than me noticed) and I was stupid and left my mute on so I could barely be heard over the cellos and violas.

Mosi just cut in at the tied note so that we wouldn't hafta to bother switching off in the middle of it, and he was DRASTICALLY LOUDER than I was because he didn't have a mute on. xD He was off, too, and then it came Isabela's turn. She did extremely well, but later she said that she had messed up and well, I didn't notice xD Lily came in not counting and Ms. Johnson ended up having to correct her. The four of us had a good laugh afterwards.

Also: Orion is pretty hot.

Mail and complications

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 02:55:50 GMT

My new bow finally came in the mail -Squees.- The stick is silver and there's black hair on it. It's beautiful, I wish I could offer pictures <33

And my teacher was shipped off to the hospital. My lesson for tomorrow is cancelled, and I'll probably be meeting two substitutes (one at school, one for private lesson; I had the same teacher for both). Normally this wouldn't jar me /too/ much, but agh, on top of all the other stressful...my normal teachers gave me like three projects at once and exams are next month - Certification, Certification, Certification DD= I don't know what to do at this point! Quit sleeping?!

Meme from Rea

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 01:20:48 GMT

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

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I am NOT anti-social D= And I better not let anyone I know in RL see this. They'll say, "Ha, I knew you were a narcissist."

Recital in the ghetto

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 17:37:53 GMT

Yesterday was strange.

My teacher gave me an address for the recital hall that I was supposed to play Bach at. The neighborhood is pretty far, so after driving for about 45 minutes I finally got to the West branch of SMS. (I usually attend the MLC (south) branch)

The building itself is pretty beautiful. It's all creamy and mansion-y. It's got this pretty gate around it too.

The neighborhood is not. I was so scared I would get shot or something. More than that, I was scared that a passerby would take interest in my violin and rob me. I'm seriously going to reject every offer that takes place over there from now on, it was absolutely terrifying ._.

I met my accompanist just an hour before the recital. I didn't know I would be getting an accompanist. I didn't even know there was an accompaniment for my piece (Bourree from Bach's Unaccompanied Cello Suite No. 3) XD The accompaniment sounded weird, too, it kinda threw me off. She proved to be valuable, though - when I froze up and stopped in the middle of it (I had forgotten the next part) she whispered "It's E, F#, G," and as soon as those three notes came out the rest of the notes came fluidly.

I got a huge applause because I'd performed some really tricky techniques, like the opening triple stops (playing three strings at once with trills) and fourth finger extensions (normally if you put your pinky down on the E string you produce a B - I stretched it to play a C).

I am SO thankful to my accompanist, I would've looked really bad if it weren't for her.

Wow, I was so stressed out before, but now that the Bach is off my shoulders I'm not -Laughs.- It's all Vivaldi, Mozart, and Ravel from here!

Baby names, not enough time in the day

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 02:17:52 GMT

I'm not doing fabulously in English like I did last year. The difference? This time last year, I was constantly ficcing. So I really want to get back to that, but there's not enough time between all the lessons and rehearsals and concerts and recitals and oh God I have to audition for Certification and take my state exams next month. Noooo. I need to give up sleep or skip school or something...there's just not enough time in the day -__-

Today I walked into lesson with a mute on my instrument and my teacher was like "Okay, I want you to run the bourree and then we -Take that mute off right now! I hate it when my students discover the mute. I don't even tell them about mutes and they just go out and buy one and then they always wanna use it. It just goes against everything that we're supposed to teach here...it's for special effect, there's no special effect if it's always on..."

My violin teacher is busy too. She's six months pregnant, losing feeling in her right hand, and she's stubborn - if her doctor tells her not to go to the music school or the other schools that she teaches at, she's going to have her students come to her house. =O That is determination right there.

She calls the baby her 'girlfriend' and we're currently looking for names. She says she really doesn't wanna name it something ghetto like 'Obamanisha'.

Come on. You all knew that was coming.

Teenage drama, muscles, and memes

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 22:40:59 GMT

So I'm feeling really bad for Jordan - he's emotionally messed up cuz of this girl and he can't even pick up his viola, he's so upset D:

In PE today I had a tickle fight with one of the boys in my class. Holy shit, he has a six-pack ._. Like...OMB

I have to wear a strapless dress and heels for my Suzuki graduation recital on Sunday. I'm going to fall and make an idiot out of myself.

I've been keeping up with the Australian bushfires - it's so ridiculous. I hope and pray that the death toll doesn't reach 200 and that the arsonists are found ASAP.

Snagged from ouranwind
1. What curse word do you use the most?
Er, probably 'shit'. I don't usually curse in RL (unless I'm playing video games. Video games turn me into a freakin' SAVAGE)

2. Do you own an iPod?
No. :(

3. What person on your flist do you talk to the most?
Um....probably sanzoneedsahug

4. What time is your alarm clock set to?
6:00

5. Do you still remember the first person you kissed?
Never been kissed ^^;

6. Do you remember where you were on 11/9/01?
At school.

7. Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
Take it; I like experimenting with angles and lighting and stuff...

8. What was the last movie you watched?
August Rush

9. Do any of your friends have children?
Yeah ^^

10. Has anyone ever called you lazy?
A lot of people xDD

11. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep?
I get really tempted to on some nights, but I've never actually done it.

12. What cd is currently in your cd player?
Shugo Chara theme songs xD

13. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Chocolate, it's not disgusting D:

14. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
I hear one every other day xP

15. When was the last time you had Starbucks?
Like...last year? Yeah, July last year.

16. Can you whistle?
I wish I could~

17. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
HAIR. <3

18. What are you looking forward to?
Rehearsal on Saturday, not looking forward to rehearsal on Tuesday, considering skipping that one...

19. Did you watch cartoons as a child?
Oh hell yes. I still watch Tom and Jerry from time to time.

20. Do you own any band t-shirts?
Yes I do xDD

21. What will you be doing in one hour?
Latin dancing. -Is dead serious.-

22. Is anyone in love with you?
If they are, they haven't told me :/

23. What was the last song you heard?
Offenbach's Can-Can

24. Last time you cried?
Last weekend

25. Are you on a desktop computer or a laptop?
Laptop

26. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
I want a second piercing in my ear; then I'm done with that kind of stuff xD

27. What’s the weather like?
Super windy. Remnants of that Oklahoma tornado are blowing over here.

28. Would you ever date a girl/guy covered in tattoos?
Depends what their personality is like...

29. What did you do before this?
Reading about the Chris Brown/Rihanna incident

30. When is the last time you slept on the floor?
Whoa, maybe four years ago?

31. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
I've run fine on three before xD

32. Do you eat breakfast daily?
Yes.

33. Are your days fast-paced?
Yes. Every hour something stupid happens that I have to deal with.

34. What did you do last night?
Drove myself crazy by attaching a super-accurate (better than one cent) chromatic tuner to my violin...I spent hours trying to move my fingers perfectly. Even if the note sounded perfectly to my ear it would tell me to bring my finger up, and if I moved it up just a millimeter it'd tell me to move it down -______-

35. Do you use sarcasm?
I used to all the time and it's like I forgot how ._.

36. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
LOL I'll still be a teenager. So. Much. DRAMA.

37. Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
Spelling yes, grammar no...

38. Have you ever been to six flags?
Yes, it was so much fun xD

39. Do you get along better with the same sex or the opposite sex?
I get along better with the opposite sex...I feel like certain girls just talk too much trash behind each others' backs.

40. Do you like mustard?
No, it's...ew Dx

41. Do you sleep on your side?
No...I usually sleep on my face :/

42. Do you watch the news?
No, but I read the paper...?

43. How did you get one of your scars?
Fell facefirst down my brick staircase.

44. Who was the last person to make you mad?
An older student who went through my bag and found my tampons and was such an innocent idiot he didn't even know what it was ("What is this, is it some kind of candy?")

45. Do you like anybody?
...Triangles and squares and pentagons and teenage drama.

46. What is the last thing you purchased?
A ticket to the Valentine's Dance tomorrow at school.

47. What side of the heart do you draw first?
Left.

48. Can you dive without plugging your nose?
Yes! -Super proud.-

49. What colour is your razor?
Scarlet.

50. What is your blood-type?
-Has no idea.-

51. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
I can name two people and I really shouldn't x_x

52. What is a rumour someone has spread about you?
Oh, no idea.

53. How do you feel about carrots?
Mmm, yummy <3

54. How many chairs at the dining room table?
Four and a high chair for Andy.

55. Which is the best Spice Girl?
Who?

56. Do you know what time it is?
17:30

57. Do you know all the words to the Fresh Prince Theme Song?
LOL I do actually xD

58. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
Stare at the ceiling and daydream...play games on my cellphone xD

59. What’s your favourite kind of gum?
Orbit Raspberry Mint

60. T or F: All’s fair in love and war?
False.

61. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yes and I really shouldn't.

62. Do you know how to use some words correctly, but not know the meaning?
I do that so often xD

63. Do you like to sleep?
Mmm, sleep <3

64. Do you know which US states don’t use Daylight Savings Time?
There are states that do that? o_O

65. Do you know the song Total Eclipse of the Heart?
No, but it sounds pretty from the title...

66. Do you want a bright yellow ‘06 mustang?
...That's a car, right?

67. What’s something you’ve always wanted?
Don't know.

68. Do you have hairy legs?
No, my hair doesn't grow very fast except for my head hair....

69. Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
Lake. The seaweed and shells in the ocean disturb me, it's like "WTF something just touched meee..."

70. Do you wear a lot of black?
No...

71. Describe your hair:
Long, pretty wavy (considering I'm Asian; it should be straight) and with random blonde and red and orange in it. I don't dye it, the sun does something...

72. Do you have Entomophobia?
Nope

73. Are you an adult?
Nope

74. Where is/are your best friend(s)?
Across the freaking city.

75. Do you have a tan?
Yes, and it wasn't intentional...I was spending too much time at the beach.

76. Are you a television addict?
Don't even watch it.

77. Do you enjoy spending time with your mother?
(And does she read your lj?)
Sometimes, sometimes not (thank goodness she doesn't)

78. Are you a sugar freak?
Yes. Please. MOAR.

79. Do you like orange juice?
Mmm, OJ <3

80. What sign are you?
Sagittarius.

Disgusted with myself

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 00:13:28 GMT

The Vivaldi (Allegro from Concerto No. 6 from L'estro Armonico, RV356) that I've been listening to sounded like it would be pretty straightforward to play.

Vivaldi's probably turning in his grave. I feel like I'm raping the piece.

I already submitted the title for certification in March, though, so I better learn it x_x If I don't get my certification BAD THINGS will happen.

On the happier side of life, the snow did end up sticking, and it's literally a winter wonderland out there. School was cancelled, and I spent the entire day eating Cocoa Puffs. Joy.

Second Period Math

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 01:21:26 GMT

Review of properties of arithmetic (distributive, associative, etc.). Boring.

So me and Damon were eating gummy bears in the back of the room XD We sit right by the radiators so he dropped one on the radiator and we watched it melt and ooze to the floor XD

Hey, it's a lot more fun than figuring out what these variables are worth =O

It was snowing really hard today, but the ground is semi-wet so it's not sticking very well. More than likely I'll still hafta go to school tomorrow.

Ew. :/

UPDATE: I got a 100 on that science quiz. -Pumps fist.- :D

And I Just Can't Stop

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 22:00:33 GMT

I forced myself to go to school today. Result?

I was coughing and hacking through half of my classes. My teachers felt so worried, half of them wanted to send me to the nurse or home.

I got a 75 on my English quiz. I've never gotten a grade that low, I'm really upset.

I found out that my science teacher taught a new unit this week while I was at home and the test is tomorrow. What am I doing posting on LJ? I need to study.

With some chocolate...

Stress Takes Its Toll

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 23:42:27 GMT

Whoa. It's been such a long time since I last posted.

I messed up during my solo on the 17th xD I'm supposed to shift from first to third (open A, first finger D) and my first finger made something like a C# instead of the D so I just subtly nudged it up xDD

Sean called me out on it and told me he was about to burst out laughing. That wonderful bastard. ♥

On the 20th, I did get some interaction with him ;) I'll probably write more about that and f-lock it or private it or something. But yeah, this time I played the solo FLAWLESSLY and stuck my tongue out at Sean afterward.

Also we had punch and cookies. There was a dispenser for "Fruit Punch" and one for "Sugar-Free Fruit Punch". Me and konzertmeister just went for the normal fruit punch. Who cares about diabetes.

I was walking extra slowly because I decided to wear a pair of three-inch heels and had to carefully mince my steps. I felt really sad because some of the elderly people in the audience with walkers and canes were actually going faster than I was.

And then I woke up really sick on Saturday.

At one point the thermometer read 105.6, and I think I should've caved and went to the hospital at that point, but I just confined myself to my room and took Motrin. I was coughing up blood-streaked phlegm and could barely breathe properly. By Sunday it had gone down to 101, although my throat was still terribly sore, and on Monday I had gotten better enough to stop taking medicine. I didn't go to school though, because my throat was still too sore to be capable of speech.

Bad idea, because I promptly went back up to 104.

I woke up on Tuesday with the sorest throat I'd ever had and skipped school that day too. By afternoon my throat was fine, so long as there was some form of liquid running down it, and I could actually go to Musicopia, which was good because we were getting new people and new music.

Music packets not ready. Woe.

Me maybe getting promoted to first violin. Good/bad?

New people - :/

Lily showed up. She's this nine-year-old girl I met at Junior Youth Orchestra and she's actually pretty young for Musicopia in my opinion because most of us are seventh and eighth grade. There are third and fourth graders, though, but not as many.

The other new people are all ninth grade, so we got a bigger group of ninth graders. There were only two before.

Julian (that's so funny, his name is like mine) is probably really scared of me because I was all gay porn and tentacle rape. I do this on purpose all the time to instill fear in new people. It's me. xD

I didn't get to talk to the other new people because I was too busy making sure Lily was okay (there's like, three people in her age range and none of them are as good as her (she's the second chair in JYO)) and getting more interaction with him. :DDD

Well. This is gonna be fun.

That night I woke up at 1:00 and started coughing my lungs out. No kidding, I was hacking and dying.

I couldn't go to sleep until three, when the coughs finally slowed down. Thank goodness it snowed so hard this morning that school was canceled. I had already promised my mom I would go :( I've been coughing nearly nonstop all day.

It's probably acute bronchitis. That's what I think it is. I've had no runny nose - is that plausible reason to rule out the flu? I would go see my doctor, but I live thirty miles away from her, agh.

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 00:46:03 GMT

My brother just slammed a door on my finger.

....Ow.